In the few years now that I’ve come to know the Lord in an experiential way, I’d like to believe in my hunger for his presence I’ve been exposed to some mind boggling adventures with God. I tell you there is nothing that I love more than the moment in an encounter with God that surpasses anything you can intellectually comprehend, rationale checks out and you instantly know by the breath of life into your spirit it's Jesus literally touching you and HE is becoming YOUR experience, HE’s becoming YOUR story. It’s surreal. Truly, a holy moment where time stands still, the world fades away and it’s you & your Father embracing. This is “the stuff” that makes my heart skip a beat!
October 28-30th I was blessed with a chance to chase Jesus over in Baltimore, Maryland. What I experienced at the Voice of the Apostles conference was yet another glorious moment in the supernatural where the Lord placed His hand upon me in new ways and ruined the cozy little box I had built for Him to live inside. You know that Jesus of mine, I love Him dearly but no matter how many times I remodel the size of my box, He simply grows too big to fit inside it…like a St. Bernard staring at Kleenex box pondering “how on earth does she expect me to fit inside there?” The gracious host-in-training that I am, I get to work(subconsiously of course) on a new bigger & better box one after another completely oblivious to my unnecessary laboring. I’m so glad the family bond between Jesus & I is intimate enough that He just lets me know with His gentle, loving [ahem, explosive] touch that my cardboard accommodations are simply inadequate for the size of His glorious presence! So another box was blown to smithereens the other week and I am “wrecked”. IT.IS.GOOD!!
I found it to be beautiful to have the coherent presence to recognize my spirit leading me to take note of the depth & variety of ways the Lord was showing His face over the course of the 3 days. With six of my all-time favorite Christian mentors(okay, okay, my Jesus Superheroes) gathered together in one place, collectively bringing their supernatural individual anointings together for a powerful corporate touch of God was an experience beyond anything words could describe. I’m simply ruined for anything else but Jesus! My heart’s burning desire is my previous sentence be the biography for everyone He sets before me ~ if I'm ruined...then you will be too! :)
As each ‘apostle’ preached the Lord’s presence was released upon the room like different fragrances of the same sweet perfume that just resonated from them. All they did was love one another like an inseparable family to a dimension that I have never witnessed in-real-life because it was a collision of supernatural & natural bonding ~ it looked like heaven. And together they did what they do best, they stood on a stage in front of thousands of people and loved on Jesus, that’s it, they loved Him each in their own way and it was an invitation that He wouldn’t refuse! And I sat on the floor beneath this stage like a child just yearning to be touched, hungry to share in the intensity of that fragrance of love… and I did…because He touched me. In three short days Jesus became a physical experience in my life in greater depths than I had known before; I could tangibly FEEL His compassion and I wept like never before; I could FEEL His consuming love for me and I was overwhelmed; I could FEEL His immense power like electricity physically shocking my body and it blew my tiny mind(oh and it hurt); I could FEEL the profound depth of His forgiveness and it melted me into a puddle; I could FEEL His zealously jealous heart in pursuit of more of my love as if I were the only one who could love Him; I could literally FEEL His intoxicating joy as my Father solidifying my understanding of Him as absolute goodness in its entirety; I could FEEL His hunger to lavish heaven’s riches upon us, His kids, if only we’d awaken to see the gifts sitting before us unopened, unexplored. Some of these experiences were brand new for me and some were intensified from anything I had experienced prior. To receive all that in 3 shorts days is completely exhausting and simultaneously refreshing beyond measure. I was so physically drained and so spiritually charged when I left I thought I might spontaneously combust!
I tell you friends, if what I've written above doesn't describe your Jesus....there is more, there is so much more!! Hunger for that EXPERIENCE and He will not turn down your invitation!
